Scratches in a paper

I always scratch a paper whenever I think about you.

Why?

Because...

You’re my sunshine.

Source of my happiness.

Bright rainbow that appears after a rainstorm.

Straps that always outstretched even when I fall in the deepest cliff.

You're the reason I keep breathing.

But...

You carve the wound in my heart. You even make the wound gaping wider in every second.

“If loving you is painful, let me being happy in this pain.”

 “Sorry I never told you all I wanted to say. Now it’s too late to hold you cause you’ve flown away, so far away…

“Never I had imagined, living without your smile, feeling and knowing you hear me. Alive and I know you’re shining down on me from heaven like so many friends we lost along the way, and I know eventually we’ll be together, one sweet day…

“I never showed you. Assumed you’d always be there. Took your presence for granted. But I always cared and I miss the love we shared. Although the sun will never shine the same, I’ll always look to a brighter day. Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep, you will listen as I pray…”

I promise to love you in every moment and until forever…

 “I Love You, and I promise I never wanted to be right if loving you is wrong.”

I'm just an ordinary girl who love doing what I like and what I think is fun and makes me happy.

What I am doing right now is waiting for someone that I love, and the fact is I hate waiting.

But... why I keep waiting if I know I hate it?

This is me and this is my scratches.

“I love the happiness because it made ​​me cheerful, but I also love wound because it made me an adult.”